I Love You Puppy // ASMR Puppy Play Roleplay [M4A] [Gender Neutral]

Y'all if I can trauma dump rn about this video and um my pup kink I'll just put it here

(Trigger Warning: detailed child abuse lasting 10 whole years, alcoholism, and kinks manifesting as a result of said abuse)

I was a child with the Autism+ADHD combo causing me to be hyper and not understanding social cues which made my father heavily dislike me due to my general obliviousness and hyperactivity he was then abusive as a result..

My grandma on my dads side actually tired bribing my mom to abort me for a sum of 800 dollars because the prenatal screenings said my brain was abnormal…

 My father would lock me in my bedroom that he specifically went out of his way to modify the doorknob to be inverted so the lock would be on the outside and he could just lock me in there leaving me for hours forgetting about me while he got drunk..

When I was crafty enough to stick something in the door before he closed it, I would sneak out to get food or water and he would chase me, Beat, and Choke me up against the the wall dangling me in the air.. then he would grab me by the the legs and drag my battered and bruised body back into the room to lock me In there again…

 We had a dog named Paco and he had all attention he wanted he was never locked up and neglect he was never starved…

I was legitimately treated worse than a dog..

 So I eventually gained envy surrounding him.

I know it's wrong to be envious of a animal just for having a better life than you but I was filled with envy wishing I could be given the same love and praise my dog was given

 I Honestly just wanted even a miniscule bit of praise or even acknowledgement that I even meant anything to anyone and wasn't just some mistake that should of been aborted..

My mother got her friend Aaron to sneak me out when my father wasn't home to get me on a plane to get out of there when I was only 10 years old.. I'll never forget her for… Saving me she was literally a angel …

I craved praise … And I don't know if this is a inbuilt coping mechanism for missing out on certain things in my formatives years or the fact that my father treated my dog better than me his own son but now that I'm a adult in my 20s, I have developed a Praise Kink And Pup Kink.

I know this probably seems heavily problematic that I wish to be praised and treated like a dog but I don't know, just the thought of being treated like a dog, being called a good boy, getting my stomach rubbed, my hair pet, and being overwhelmed with affection and praise feels extremely comfortable and cozy when treated like a dog

 this honestly probably isn't anywhere near a normal response to childhood trauma and neglect..

 But to give this comment a lighter ending and to cheer stuff up since many trauma dumps end in a depressive state or melancholy.. 

So something comical and kinda ironic thing that happened around the time I discovered my pup kink…

My eyes are already pretty bad but they somehow got messed up so that the color cones were damaged and as I result I have somehow gotten acquired Deuteranopia color blindness (I can't see red or greens only shades of Royal Blues, Golds, and Pewter like silvers) it is normally genetic but I guess since my body has always been messed up with medical conditions so I guess I'm rare or something… 

But The ironic thing is Deuteranopic color blindness is the same color vision dogs see in,  So I guess the universe does have a bit humor, Making me see like a dog, When I realized I wanted to be treated like a pet dog…

Really hate how you made it so I did something bad in the audio😢
even if its something silly if master says I'm bad I feel bad.

Idk why but when I hear dominant figures talk nice my thighs open up and I get all hot
It feels wrong like I’m being violated yet at the same time like I’m being protected
Like all my brain’s responses are swapped with this one response
I shudder to imagine what would happen during a sexual interaction with someone
Just thinking about it makes me scared and happy
Wth is wrong with me!

Me who stayed up late till 2AM in the morning and hears that I’m tired:Hah? IM FULL OF ENERGY!!!

I like that there's no degradation in this audio. So many other audios make puppy sad because they call puppy "bitch" or something and it's not true!

The “previous owners” bit made me cry because as the child of abusive parents, the idea of getting adopted by a caring guardian who loves me no matter what is genuinely just a damn fantasy

0:44 "would you like some headpats?"

THE ANSWER IS LITERALLY ALWAYS YES

I came here for something spicy and now I’m healing my inner child
wtf 😣

"you missed me while i was gone at work, so you curled yourself up in my blankets to feel closer to me?" 😍that is so freakin cute!!!

EEEEEEE this made me smile sm <33

Woof woof! wags tail happily

"i almost stepped on you… again"

darn didnt work this time. so close

Yassssss

I want a part 2 where we go and play with that big red ball!! Or go for walkies ANYTHING!!